What does food mean to me?

Did I ever mention that I'm overweight? Probably not. But I am. Overweight that is. And, I'm stubborn. I keep thinking that I can lose weight on my own, my own way. And just today I'm beginning to think that maybe I can't. Maybe I need a little help.

I'm thinking about joining Weight Watchers. But, I don't want to just lose weight. I want to be healthy. I want to be in charge of my body and my weight and my spirit. Oh, and let's not forget my soul. I think I've been living with my eyes wide shut. Or maybe living half asleep. I'm not sure how to go about living my life with my eyes wide open. I feel like there's not enough time in the day to do all the things I want to do.

And don't think this is a new year's resolution, because it's not. I don't make promises. This is just something I owe myself. I'm not sure how it will go or even what it looks like.

I'll keep you posted.

Creative Constipation

I'm sitting here in front of my computer screen and the only thing that occurs to me is that I don't know what to write. Argh! I really don't know how you do it. How do you come up with those ideas of yours? This is not the first time I've written about this musing of mine. And, I still feel lacking.

Did I mention that I call it creative constipation? My creative juices seem to get stuck. And they are stuck. It's a horrible feeling.