(to R.L., in a moment of missing)

It wasn’t just two weeks ago that you left here.
And drove to some far away place.
I think of you every day, every hour, every minute.
I think of you every breath.

It used to be that breathing was easy
when you were near.
Now, I can’t take in your scent.
Patchouli puts me in a moment of missing you.
I remember the tastes of the meals we prepared,
the rhythm of the music we listened to,
if only in a moment of missing.

You told me you had to go find something.
To make you happy.
I told you I understood.
I didn’t want to be mean. So I said that.
Now, in a moment of missing you,
I want to take it back.
I want to be mean.
You left me, remember?

What I've learned lately...

Okay, so I'm supposed to teach a course this fall and I'm beginning to panic a bit. My first full-semester course. I've been doing a lot of reading and believe I'm learning a lot but I don't feel I know enough to teach the class. So, I find that I always do something that complicates matters. I meander around in the citations looking at the articles and papers referenced, read them and think I need to include them in what I'll be teaching. I also do this when I'm writing articles. What happens next is I end up feeling overwhelmed and lose interest in writing or teaching because it ends up being way toooooooo much. I struggle making a plan and sticking to it. So, then I end up feeling compelled to research writing research papers and applying what I find to teaching.

1000

I'm shooting for 1000 hits to my blog. I've decided that will make me feel special. Or at least that my blog is special. But, I have a hard time thinking that, really, as I haven't gotten that many comments. The one person who left the most comments seems to have fallen off the face of the blogging world. I'm not sure what happened to him, except maybe he's gotten caught up in family stuff. Who knew! Anyway...somehow the idea of having 1000 hits to my blog is really doing something for me.

If you're one of those 1000 hits I'd appreciate any comments you care to leave. As long as they are kind.

Amended list of things to do:

 


Believe I have enough! 

I wish you enough.

This came to me in an e-mail today, and now I share it with you.

When we said , 'I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them".

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude
Bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

Whisker collection.

I wish I had saved all the whiskers my cat's have lost over the years. I bet I'd have quite a few, since I've had cat's since I was a teenager. But anyway, back to the whisker thing...I find them in the most unusual places and I'm always a little intrigued about them. They're (the whiskers) are so stiff and sharp on the one end, while they're so flexible and soft on the other. I know what they're all about since I've paid attention to my cats over the years. In case you don't know what whiskers are all about, you can check out this site:

"http://science.howstuffworks.com/question592.htm"

So, what would I do with all those whiskers? I dunno. Maybe just keep them in a pile someplace, or put them in a jar standing up with the soft side up. That might be kind of cool.

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The Music Genome Project.

If you like good music, and if you are always on the look out for more good music check out this site...Pandora.com. I've found some really nice music that I've never heard before by bands I've never heard of before. Go there now!

Things To Do:

1. Sell my house.
2. Get boxes to pack stuff in.
3. Take cell phone back to store for replacement. (It randomly shuts itself off.)
4. Finish cleaning office.
5. Return phone calls.
6. Stick to weight watchers plan.
7. Laundry.


Did I mention I need to sell my house?

Something fun.

Your Observation Skills Get A B

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time) And it takes something big to distract you!

How Observant Are You?

And more fun............

Your Birthdate:

You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame. You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems. Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego. You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance. Your strength: Your bold approach to life Your weakness: You don't accept help Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Pyramid Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Miss you.

Pete, if you're out there, I miss reading your blog!

Happy 4th!

  

More from Cape May Point

  

Just Buzzin Around!

  

Cape May Point Lighthouse

 

Another pic from Cape May Point. 

Cape May Point

 

Sunrise on the beach at Cape May Point. Have you ever been? 

Zack's foot.

  

Zack is my new nephew. He's growing so fast! He's 3 months and 2 weeks old tomorrow! What a love he is. And how fast he's growing. I can't believe it. I am so grateful that my mom had the chance to meet him and hold him before she died. My sister is an amazing mom. (I hope she reads this post!)

Footprint

  

I've been away for so long I'm not sure how to get started. So much has happened. Should I start with the good stuff or the bad? I guess I'll start with what's formost on my mind. I lost my mom 2 months ago. She had an aneurysm. (I think that's how its spelled.) It was completely unexpected. She didn't have any symptoms. I am so very raw and today I've felt sick to my stomach all day. I've got so much on my mind about this but I don't feel like writing any more about it now.

On a better note...my sister had her baby at the end of March. He is a cutey.

Food!

I love food. Like, really, no kidding. You name it, I'll eat it...just about anything. And, as a consequence, I'm overweight and have high cholesterol. NOT! I just got the results from my latest blood work and my cholesterol is below 200! WAY BELOW!!! For the first time in years. I am so very happy. And, no...don't think I've done this on my own. I tried. I tried the all cardboard diet; basically eating anything that tasted like cardboard but was really high in fiber along with a great amount of exercise. Only, nothing worked. Then I recognized that high cholesterol runs in my family. My mom has it, my older brother has it, and my younger brother and sister's levels are moving on up there. So, I turned to drugs, good diet and continued exercise. That's how I did it.
I am overweight however. And I'm working on it. Perhaps my success at lowering my cholesterol will inspire me to continue to work at losing weight. We shall see.

Another AHHHHHHHHHHH................................

Okay, So I'm now feeling more grounded. I'm finally over my jet lag but now I'm into my desire for clean sweeping everything in my house and I'm not making any headway. Why is that? Can anyone tell me why 1 successful, smart, very reliable, clever, talented woman has such trouble cleaning up the mess she makes. You do understand that when I speak of this "woman" I am speaking of me, myself and I, don't you? And, can you believe that 1 woman can make such a mess? I look around me and I think, now how did that get to look like that? The answer is...cuz I didn't put my toys away, that's how. Toys?!? HA! Try, newspapers, books, remote control for the tv, pens, notepads...numerous ones for jotting down my thoughts and etc, souvenirs from my latest trip that I bought my entire family and list of friends but haven't given to them yet, extra cell phone battery that was recently replaced by the new one cuz the old one didn't hold a charge for very long anymore and etc., etc., etc.

Oh, and another thought.....I would rather clean someone else's house then my own. Go figure.

Sleepless in Michigan

Okay, I'm back. I went on vacation for 2 weeks half way across the world and now I'm suffering from jet lag. It was an awesome vacation. I took 1400 pictures. I uploaded them to my computer, but haven't really had a chance to go through them yet. But, here's one. I saw a lot of interesting people on this trip. The geography was absolutely amazing. I need to catch up on my sleep, pay my bills and figure out how to work while suffering from jet lag.